offmyheadthereisapath.

i can't think. i blame otherpeople.
yesterday. i am manic after spending the best part of the past week crying. and not bipolar manic or hormonal manic either. no sir, i have a reason! i'm thinking, oh, i have just jumped through a bureucratic hoop successfully! it was hard and i had to deal with (unreasonable and lazy) people, but i did it! go me!
then i come across this person who's previously stolen one of my childhood memories and recounted it in my words, and done other things like that. (they're currently #4 on my "i want to understand this person so much i can't even" list, but it's pretty hopeless. how do you understand a nice person? you don't. they just go around being nice.)
then i go somewhere where there are people. i strut my usual(!) annoyingly cheerful self around. no one has anything to say to anyone but we make do. still manic.
i come home and eat gummy loop things. glucose syrup! &c.
then i check my e-mail. for no apparent reason. i don't know why i am surprised, considering i've known with some certainty for some time that otherpeople were lazy and unreasonable and generally incompetent. I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO THINK SINCE. THIS IS A PROBLEM.

new fandom, ahh. right now it's kind of the only thing keeping me sane, but STILL NOT THINKING LALALALA.

my sport is still a joke. (after sanseb i'm deleting all my bookmarks and feeds and things. hah! see you at the olympics, sport!)

my brain thinks all nicethingsyousay (i keep thinking they're called platitudes but they're not, but they're not, but they're not.) are interchangeable. i should be more worried about this.

i was going to write about transsib.